yaALLAH....

YaAllah..,knp sungguh hbt sume dgaan yg Kau beri??aq tw aq khilaf yaAllah..tp sbsr inikah hukuman yg Kau beri??sakit yaAllah..knp perlu Kau beri dy pdKu andai akhrnya ksakitan sebegini rupa yg Kau beri..???aq xkuat yaALLAH..aq xmmpu nk lalui sume niey sndiri..sume bebanan niey mmbunuh aq!! aq xmmpu nk bthn ag..
aq cinta dy ya tuhan..bkn am @ azwan yg aq 6t..aq mhon..dy..hnye dy yg aq arap menemani siang n mlmku..tawa dan dukaku..
tp knp???knp kau ambl dy drku??
pd siapa harus aq mencurah rasa???aq da mula goyah..kau ambil sbhgian dr idup aq..tp knp??????????YaAAllah..,khidupan ckup sukar utkku tempuh..aq tkowt tsungkur kmbali..aq tkowt aq da xbdya utk bjuang..
tp..,andai ini mmg suratan takdirMu..,dan andai ini yg terbaik wt dirinya..,aq pasrah yaAllah..aq redha..biarlah aq merana sendiri demi dy yg aq cinta..lagipula..,ini salah aq..aq yg mruntuhkn hbungan kami..xpewr r..xd beza pown..idup aq mmg snantiasa sukar..aq da bese mnitinya..tp aq mhon ya tuhan..temukanlah dy ngan kbhagian dy..sungguh aq cinta dy..ampunkan aq yaAllah..berikn r aq kkuatan utk trus bdiri..n berikn r aq n kluargaku jln kuar dr kmelut ini..aq skit mlihat org yg aq cinta ssh,,yaAllah..,jgn Kau duga ibuku shbt arwah abhku..ckuplah skaly..aq mhon..aq mhon..tbhkn kami..

uhm...,at last..,the book war has ended..1 year struggling in UITM seriously taught me about life..life that I've never imagined..it's not that I've never being through all this things b4 (even worse) but this time around, it's kind of different..I met lots of people..learn their behaviour..

apart of it..there's a sweet memories that I'll always keep deep into my heart...I really miss my classmate of LWAO2H..from them..,I learn about sincerity..,I also witness a few tragedies i can say (consequences of not given a freedom)...well.., dont wanna talk much about that...

btw..,I'm quite anxious u can say..I'm terrified..hows my result looks like huh???Honestly..,I need to seek for a scholarship..I dont wanna burden my mom much..pity my mom..she's suffering right now..I can see that through her eyes..she miss my step father very much..where can he be ek??yup..,it is my mom's fault but this is just beyond the line..he cannot just leave my mom like that..it just not right..i miss my dad..i bet he will never done this to my mom..nobody can love my mom just like my dad used to...no matter how bad my mom is..,he will never left my mom behind..he even willing to sacrifice his life for my mom and for his kids..he devoted his all life to us..I love him damn much..i swear! I wish 1 day..., there will be a man out there who can love me as what I am and can just do like my father used to do just to make sure we are all ok..I wish I can I can go back to the old time...I miss him..seriously..,I miss my dad...

well..., i think that is just all 4 now..
last word..,I miss my friends very much..campus life is so much fun!!!hahahhaha..looking 4ward to see them in future..wondering if they wish to arrange any reunion in future..=) wish to see them all succeed in everything thry do..me as well..amin..

k r..,gtg..,
xoxo...,
sweet galz..=)

pape je r..

seriously…

I’m so confused..why she keep running away from me??I’m not so sure whether I did somting that hurt her badly or it just because of her mood swing..ok let say I did somting wrong…then what is it??why don’t u come and tell me..Let just clear all this mess can u??or u just love to hurt people..maybe it just u who being so selfish..u no wat?? I’m sick with u and I’m just can’t stand with u anymore..
honestly speaking..I’m so tired..yah…,wat a pathetic me right?? but wat 2 do..I can’t cope with this situation anymore..my dad was right..firdaus was right 2..never trust or being 2 nice with people cz later on u will feel the pain..people love to take us 4 granted..or should I say, we all love to..uhm..,just be calm eyza…u got one week more to go..then..,booommmm….,they will all disappear…..hey guys.., don’t misunderstand my word pliz..what I mean here..,next week is my last week in UITM for this semester..then..,I’m free..no more books till june and no more headache..yuhuuuuuuuu…
k r…
gtg…
daa…

so complicated..

hye guys....,

i'm back....

guys...,i feel quite disappointed now..my concentration toward my study quite slumped lately... I donno how 2 describe how i feel now..it's too complicated to explain...i felt hurt...maybe cz my friend felt the same..i donno..uhm..,it's better 4 me 2 stop writing anything for now cz it will just adding up the burden i have 2 bear..so sorry..allow me 2 calm myself down first...

gtg..
daa..

guyss,,,,...

woit eyza! study!!!!off ur laptop now!!

issshhh..,rilex...i swear that's what I'm gonna do n in fact what I am doing right now..just that my brain is totally overloading with all input from books..(law II,economy, n psychology)n all that input totally drive me to the wall.. n I'm just can't take any more input up to my brain..just not now..let's give my brain time to compress all those input and process it well so that I wont suffered any psychogenic amnesia during my examination..hahahhhahhahaa..(bombastic gler!)

well..,it's kind of hot now!!seriously..i felt like having picnic in my mom's freezer now...hahahhahha... i cant stand with this situation...arrrgghhh..,I'm sweating!!

btw..,i felt like crying right now...that old man didn't text me yet..I am totally miss him so much..
alamak....blog wt hal...
xpewr..next time aq post gmbr kowg ek..

luv u all..,'
xoxo..,
sweet galz...=)

eh guys..,4got 2 tell u guys...just now i open my ex bf's profile on my space n guess what???all those pic's of his beloved gf has gone..he has deleted it all i guess..well...,I guess he's already...,uhm..,u no...
dulu..,he dumped me just to chase that gurl..she's cute..that fact totally undeniable...but now???huh..,u r totally loser u no..pewr jnis mnusia r mmt 2..

but thanx 2 u 4 dumping me cz if not because of u..,I will never met my husband now..(that old man who totally give rise to my blood pressure juz now)hehhehhe..he's not that old...in fact...,younger than me...sebulan jewr pown...=p hehehhe...

enough with him..now..,i wanna share a few photos of me n my beloved frens from LWA02H...u guys cool..I'M gonna miz u guys after this..and our memories..,i will kept that deep in my heart.. i luv u guys so4 much..mmmuuuaaahhhh....,

final....

hye guys...,

it has been a while since my last post..

u c..,there's a lot of things I wanna share but i donno where to start..

ok..,now i feel trembling like a leaf...my final exam is just around the corner and i totally not ready yet!! that fact totally freaking me out!! damn it!

now..,i better start study and i better remind myself of my vision to keep my motivation up ...better late than never right??wish me luck..=)

yg len..,i cerita 6t k..


daa...,
xoxo..,
sweet galz..

repekan semate

it has been a long time since my last update..uhm..,lots of things to write but donno how to start..

ok..,first...,this week is totally a hectic week..i guess..,i've got insomnia prob..like 2day..it's already 5.20 am but still i can't sleep..i donno y..

btw..,my lovely high school chemist's teacher are going to get marry on 14march..i'm happy 4 her..semoga bahagia ckgu..

k r..mlz nk menaip da..ngantok..daaa...
xoxo,
sweet galz..