what a miserable prob i have..

Well, let’s see...my *** with her creepy plan...fir with his hurt feeling...my siblings with their unsettle school registration...the landlord with his tenant’s unsettle rent...my study??I can’t even read one line!!Me with my economic crisis... what a disaster...well, GOD, I’m really in crisis right now... to be frank, yeah, I’m mad at YOU...i’m tired with YOUR test..I can take no more...I have no strength left...people said YOU will just test YOUR servant based on their capability...but me??YOU test me more than what I can take...i’m exhausted...YAALLAH.., please, let me get out of here...I’m begging YOU…help me..Please, help YOUR poor servant...please…I can’t take this anymore... a lot of things hanging around in my head but it just out of my ability to solve everything out..What more can I do??Just sitting around.., wait and see if all this problem will solved out one day...because, most of the problem caused by her..So let her settle everything and if all her plan didn’t work out, I hate to say this but....’I told you so’...i wish, that stupid old man get lost from our life...he make thing worst..He is the one who propose that silly plan and my *** simply and willingly take those risk...she just ignored warning given by my *******...what the hell she’s trying to prove to us????!!! And if there’s anybody who should bear those blame is that stupid old bachelor...what he think he is...his plan never work out and now he want to use my mom??How terrible he is...I hate him...and ***..,can you please one second in your life try to consider and think carefully with what you trying to do??Can you please consider the impact of your decision to others??To us? I’m tired...advising you seriously drive me to the wall!!!You are so hard-headed...please.., settle one things in one time...you can’t have it all and pretending like everything is under control...coz it’s not...it’s not...you just make thing worse for others..Don’t expect me to come and redeem all you mistakes because I can’t...about fir,uhm..,I didn’t know that my words hurt him badly..And realizing that I have hurt him, make me felt awful...sorry honey.., I didn’t mean it...and the best thing to do now is to keep a distance from him...i don’t wanna hurt him anymore especially for now.. I’ve got a lot of burden to bear and I don’t wanna add it more to myself neither to you...i’m sorry..about the landlord..,pak cik, tlg r tggu mak sy alek..sy xtw nk wt pewr..sy xtw kputusan dy!!Uhhmm.., btw, test is around the corner but I’m not ready yet!!but I have to remain calm and give the best shot coz I have mission and I’m gonna strike my goal no matter what happen..INSYAALLAH...and, YAALLAH, andai ini r takdir yang tertulis buatku, berikanlah aku kekuatan utk terus hadapinya dengan tenang...aku percaya dan yakin dengan kekuasanMU...ampunkan aku kerana sering mengeluh tapi aku Cuma manusia biasa...aku takut aku jatuh...aku takut aku tak mampu nak hadapinya lagi YAALLAH...tolonglah hambaMu ini..ampunkan aku dan berikanlah aku petunjukMU..aku mohon..amin…
Well, feel better now...got to go...
Xoxo…,
Sweet galz...=)